im sorry... im sorry...
but please...
can u stop torturing me like this...?
sometimes i really don't noe if i shud be happy or sad...
ur replies never exceeded two sentences since then...
everytime...
i read ur msg...
cried...
and forced myself to reply u in a cheerful way...
that's wad i've been going through these days...
i really hope to just settle this at once...
i wish i had the courage to tell u wad i really felt...
how i struggled all these months...
but i dun dare to tell you...
i dun wann u to feel disturbed...
u once said that im giving u a lot of pressure...
that msg hurt me so much...
so i really dun wish to feel the same pain again...
but i noe... i brought this upon myself...
the last thing i wanna hear now...
is that u have already let go...
im sure i would breakdown if i heard it from u...
but my exams are coming...
all these days i tried so hard to make myself concentrate...
but failed...
to tat special someone...
can u feel it?
am i the only one who cares now?
how long will u take to forgive me?
will u please...
give me the chance to explain...?
...
can u tell me
wad i should do to let u forgive me?
i wrote so much messages today...
but i cant bring myself to send him...
at least now...
i could still hold hopes that maybe...
maybe we still feel the same...
after the night lesson in school...
i had a stroll around the sch...
feeling so empty
and that's when i wrote this msg...
这样宁静的夜晚，
躲在学校安静的角落，
自己一个人…
多少有一点害怕，
但是孤单的感觉却比害怕多了好多倍…
真希望我不是一个人… but i dun intend to send it...
den... harns accompanied me home...
yet we didnt take our normal route to the bus-stop...
we walked on the path...
which leads us nearer to his house...
suddenly... i just broke down...
i cried...
he was so close to me...
but why does it seem that he is a miles away...?
this is exactly the pain i felt when i began to realise my feelings for him last yr
like he's just too far for me to reach...
哭…沉默…哭…沉默…
这几天我就是这样过的…
他冷漠的回讯就这样一次又一次地把我刺伤…
失望后，就用我们共同的回忆来疗伤，
安慰自己，这只是你想保护自己的证明…
我心里明白，却又不敢承认，
或许…是你的心早就不在我身上…
dui bu qi...
wo zhen de xi huan ni...
Posted by Zhu-An at 10:18 PM
